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I Quit Mininstry

December 25, 2014

Before you judge me after reading my catchy blog title, let me explain something I’ve learned these past few months here in Jerusalem and what has led me to “quit ministry”.

Six months ago I followed a gentle nudge from the Holy Spirit leading me to Jerusalem. I didn’t know what awaited me. I had already given up the “normal church life” in the states to embrace a so-called “fulltime missionary” status. What does that even mean anyway? According to Merriam-Webster a missionary is: a person who is sent to a foreign country to do religious work (such as to convince people to join a religion or to help people who are sick, poor, etc.). Well, who wants to be defined as that?! I’m far from religious and I’m not out to convince anybody of anything, that’s not my job. Now, let’s look at the definition of a ministry: the office, duties, or work of a religious minister. Huh. Once again, definitely not how I would describe my “work”.

So, what do I do? Isn’t that the million dollar question we ask all those that we meet. But, before you ask that to the next person you meet, ask yourself, did people ask Paul what he “did”? What about John the baptist? Did people ask Jesus what he “did”? Something that stuck out about these guys…it wasn’t what they “told people” they did, it was their life that showed people who they were.

My Dream
I had a dream a couple months ago. In my dream I was walking through the streets of Jerusalem. I saw all these people around me, Jew, Arab, foreigner, all of whom needed healing in their lives, needed truth in their lives, needed Jesus in their lives. In my dream however, I was unable to speak. What happened was even greater. As I looked into their eyes, these beams of light were shining from my body. In each beam of light was wrapped a fruit of the spirit. Love. Joy. Peace. Patience. Kindness. Goodness. Gentleness. Self-Control. As each beam of light hit every individual person, they were immediately changed, conformed into the very fruit that hit them. Whoa.

Dream Come True
Shortly after I had my dream, Jerusalem experienced numerous terrorist attacks. There was a slaughter of Jews in a synagogue, families run over by cars, and an attempted assassination of a rabbi near where I live. It was a tense time in Israel.

I was walking home one evening from Jaffa street, a pretty busy street near the Old City. As I was walking I started noticing the people around me. I noticed fear. I noticed tension. I noticed sadness. The Holy Spirit was allowing me to see into the hurting lives and minds around me. Everything in me wanted to run and hug and love and minister to these people, but something else happened. I was so aware of the Presence I was carrying at that moment. As I became aware, I began to intercede and just smile at the people that walked by. What happened was like in a dream…like the dream I just had. I watched people relax. I watched shoulders drop, walks slow down, even a few smiles in return. I was watching the Holy Spirit do a work that I couldn’t have possibly done any better. And the only thing I was doing was carrying His Presence. His Presence changes everything.

John 15:5 says, “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing.” The word abide means to stay, remain or to dwell in. The word bear means to carry. So, if we remain in Him and He dwells in us, we will carry fruit…it’s a byproduct of Him in us, not something we can achieve with an agenda…or “ministry”. What convinces people of the Truth isn’t necessarily what we say, it’s who we are.

So, I decided here in Jerusalem that it would be best to “quit ministry” and “start ministering His Presence”. It’s the most fruitful, refreshing, restful, easy “work” I’ve ever done. And, the best part about it is I can do it here in Israel, in America, Africa, Egypt, China, Australia, Brazil, a public bathroom, a bank, a gas station and anywhere in between.

So, ask me what I do here in Israel. I be…He does.

4 Comments leave one →
  1. Dawn D permalink
    December 25, 2014 8:43 pm

    Wow! I’ve been praying and receiving this Word for months…and to hear it along with an anointed Word and revelation experience is a confirmation for me…so now I pray that all who have ears hear, truly understand and receive this beautiful Truth!…and just Be…because He will.
    So blessed, my sweet sister! In His Presence…Love you!

    • December 25, 2014 8:53 pm

      Its really an amazing thing, yet so foreign to us in so many ways. You live it Dawn! Your life is a beautiful picture of who He is. Love you!

  2. December 27, 2014 8:15 am

    You continue to be used well by our Savior….God bless you…..

  3. January 7, 2015 8:17 pm

    WOW! What a powerful word!!! Thank you for being a vessel of the Holy Spirit to those around but also for sharing what you are learning by your words!

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